For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans not to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future - Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
My faith sustains me. When I feel like the world around me is crumbling, I repeat Jeremiah 29:11 over and over until I am fully reminded of who I am and more importantly whose I am.
Two years ago, I felt like I went through one of the roughest times in my life. I lost friends, my business was shaky, I was waitlisted at my first choice law school, I simply thought that my dreams were no longer attainable. But then it dawned me, I needed to get out of my own way, to allow God's plans to come to fruition.
In June of 2014, I began writing my first book (it’s still in progress because law school has now become my husband, my priority, and the blocker of all things lol). The title of this book is appropriately named, I Give Myself Permission. This is an assignment timely given by God in order for me to learn how to get out of my own way. I've learned how to relinquish control over my life so that God can do a good work through me.
The moment I gave my permission to release fear, to release doubt, to release everything that I thought wasn't amazing or spectacular about myself, and allowed all that is good and Godly to shine through, my life shifted. My waitlist turned into an acceptance into Howard University School of Law. A place where after my first semester I thought my legal goals were unattainable because I didn't place at the top of my class. A place where if I put my faith in man, I wouldn't have landed a federal judicial internship, a placement at a firm, and an internship with a prominent civil rights organizations, all because I was told my transcript wouldn't open these doors. But God.
I gave myself permission to release failed friendships, accepting what I could have done better and simultaneously making space for God to bless me with some of the best sisters I could have ever asked for here in DC. I was also strengthened my relationships with those who have been in my corner during all my challenges and triumphs. My business was put on hiatus but God has blessed me with mentors and sponsors who are there to help me reorganize and re-launch the organization into something bigger than what I first envisioned.
Deciding to truly live a faith lifestyle has sustained me. It has healed many holes in my life. My name is Lauren Renee Jackson and my Faith Heels is about full submission to God's plan for my life <3