Every summer my mom made sure I went to visit my grandparents in North Carolina. While I thought it was pure torture then, I can now look back with gratitude because I had an opportunity to get to know and bond with my grandparents. My grandfather is a quiet man, very laid back but my grandmother aka Big Mamma certainly lived up to her name. Her personality was big, and she spoke emphatically and you'd always hear her say "Baby, just live long enough". The phrase would continually throw me off as I never knew what it meant; however as a young girl it felt to be just as dismissive as Bye Felicia!!!
So now fast forward to 31 years later, I have loved, lost, had a baby, got a master’s degree, sent said baby off to college... you get where I'm going right? I have LIVED and each time I go through something, I think of my Big Mamma saying ""Baby, just live long enough"
Those who know me well have heard the countless stories about how I was a fighter growing up. So, naturally when I find myself in a challenging situation my first and most natural response is to fight. Back in the day you fight, you finish and then you leave, but if the Lord allows you to “live long enough" things should be different; you should mature.
"Lliving long enough"-> Romans 12; 2 instruct us to not conform to the world's way of doing things but to be transformed by the renewing of our mind. This means that I cannot conform and fight the way I used to...the way that came natural when I feel wronged, hurt or disrespected. In my transformed and renewed state, I have to fight in prayer, fasting, showing love and exercising patience with people. Living longer and encountering more complex situations require new levels of praying, fasting, showing love and patience as l am learning, over and over again. Seeing my tests and trials as a gift is part of the renewal of my mind and thought- processes. During my most recent trial, my faith was forced into the open. Though it revealed a variety of colors and every color wasn't beautiful, I was able to stop, pray and watch God work it out for my good and for His glory.
My name is Cynthia Allman. I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister and sister friend and my Faith Heels is about patience, endurance and living long enough to see......